When You're Weak Remember This

There are times when I think "if I wasn't disabled" and it's always when I'm frustrated or my plans aren't working out. I realized that I am most likely not the only one who gets into this mindset, so the other night I wrote this to help us in those moments. I strongly believe that God was speaking to and through me.


They see me here,
I look weird,
How can I hide? 
I can’t. 

They make fun even if I say a single word.
I begin to think why and what if I wasn’t this way?
No, You say. 
I have a plan for you- it will be amazing
Just wait and see. 
Keep talking and they’ll come around. 
Even if they don’t just remember, 
You are beautiful and oh so perfect. 
My opinion of you is the only one that matters and to me- you’re worthy. 
I will heal you one day but not until you complete your mission. 
The mission I gave you. 

You don’t even know how many lives you’ve brought to me, 
The seeds you’ve planted, 
The seeds you’ve watered, 
You help me on a level that no abled-body person can. 
That is why you’re this way. 

It’s hard, 
I know. 
I’ve walked this road before you. 
I walk this road by your side. 
Don’t forget I was bullied too. 
I was mocked. 
I was betrayed. 
I was killed. 
I did it so that you could be free, 
So that you could live for me. 

The next time you get made fun of, 
The next time you’re pushed to tears, 
The next time someone stares, 
Remember that you are strong because I am strong, 
I love you,
I am with you,
I hurt with you, 
Trust me, 
I will bring you through it all. 

I’ll let you in on a little secret:
When people are mean to you,
They’re actually just being mean to me. 
It has absolutely nothing to do with you. 

I am so proud of you, my child. 
Don’t you ever forget that.