The Good Days, also hi, I'm back blogging :)

Do you ever look at a picture and want to go back to that day? Because life was good.

There's a picture that my dad took of me about a month after I turned eighteen, I was standing in front of a gate that leads into a pasture at my grandparents' farm...I was wearing my #hugdealer sweater and skinny jeans. My hair was in a bun- typical Kelcie in twenty-sixteen. One of the reasons why I love that picture is because I have a clear memory of taking pictures of my grandfather that day, along with other family members. This was exactly three years ago to the day but a few months after that my life changed and not necessary in a good way.

Grief changes lives and makes you wish you could go back to "when life was good". Unfortunately, you can't. However, you can hold onto those memories and allow them to push you forward. Brad Paisley said in his song Today, "I don't know about tomorrow but right now the whole world feels right and a memory of a day like today can get you through the rest of your life". Grief is easily described to be like waves, some days it's low tide and you can carry on life with little to no problem but other days it's like a tidal wave. 

It's funny I'm writing about this single picture when I received an email from someone who doesn't believe the saying, "a picture's worth a million words". I wholeheartedly believe it because without pictures I think our memories would fade faster. I think we'd also forget what people who have passed on looked like.

So, going back to the picture of twenty-sixteen, senior in high school me- I saw that and remembered when my life was good. I was about two months from graduating, I still had both of my grandparents around, my siblings all lived at home, we did a lot as a family (not to say we don't anymore but it takes a bit more planning), and I was months away from my official seizure free date. Tonight was small wave, a wave that makes me kinda sad but also extremely grateful for those memories. I'm looking forward to making more everyday. 

As Brad Paisley ends his song- he says this, "bring on tomorrow, I've got today. Bring on tomorrow, right now the world is right. Bring on tomorrow, because the memory of a day like today can get you through the rest of your life.".

Mini life update (because I haven't posted a blog since last June): my trip to Rome fell through and I'm now a student at Lane. Sco Titans! I've also been working on a huge collaboration with DanceAbility, the Oregon Bach Festival, and the University of Oregon's Dance Department. It's gonna be a super lit show at the Hult Center on July 5th at 7:30!